Alone/Lonely

when i said
"i want to be alone"

i didn't want
you gone

i wanted
that comfort
only silence
can bring

i wanted
to be enveloped
by my thoughts

you left
so quickly

you kissed
my cheek
when you
walked away

you loved
me enough
right?

i was alone
left with my
dark thoughts

they were
more frightening
than i imagined

the monster
came back

it sang
to me
the song of sorrow

it loved me
when i didn't

but then again
so did you

when i said
"i want to be alone."
i didn't say
"i want to be lonely."

i didn't say
"i want to die alone."